During our last talk, we discussed being lost. As I shared analogies of oceans, storms, and skirts, I expressed some of the beauty in finding yourself from the inside out. At some point, I may have mentioned something along the lines of, “As I am still learning, I will share with you the logistics of finding yourself from the inside out.” I fully intended to figure out those logistics and have them to you within that next week! No, seriously, I was taking notes and everything. Every opportunity, activity, and class was a lesson. It was my time to find something to give to you about finding yourself from the inside. As the next week rolled around, I thought I was fully prepared. I had an article written with steps and it felt right. However, God told me to wait. There was more to learn and things needed to be corrected, so I waited. As my patience bled into the last weeks of school and right down to graduation, I took a moment to be grateful. I had learned so much more than that rough draft article from before.
So here’s the first thing you need to know about the logistics: THERE ARE NO SET IN STONE LOGISTICS! Believe me, I was shocked too! As individualistic and specific as it sounds, the logistics are created according to you. Finding yourself from the inside out is an incredibly personal journey. At first you are alone and you aren’t entirely sure where to start, or if you really want to start for that matter. As a witness, I definitely recommend you begin! This journey starts out like a game of “Spot The Difference”. There are clusters of junk everywhere and you can’t find what you need. Right before you question why you ever decided to play this game, and give up, there is a tiny sparkle near the thing you need. You search through that section dissecting each little object and then bingo! There it is! Don’t worry, you won’t always have to dig through piles of clutter to find pieces of yourself. As you get to know the real you better, you grow stronger. Situations in life are easier to understand and handle. Things will be more clear and specific to you. You will learn exactly what you need in order to be a better you and help others in the process.
I’m still on my journey. I’ve swam through ‘Nowhere Pacific Ocean’, made it to Kaci’s Island, and now I am exploring the land little by little. Being completely attentive to my search for myself, I took some mental notes of my actions, responses, and thoughts. I learned that spending relaxing time outside once a week helps me react differently to situations that would normally stress or anger me. Communicating with loved ones opened my eyes to the beauty of a strong support system. I also realized that there are some rough parts of myself that I need to work on. I am currently learning to be more considerate of other people.
Since there are no universal logistics to finding yourself, I can give you one tip that will make this journey easier for you. Pay attention to yourself - not in a vain way, but as a way to gain understanding. Take mental or physical notes of things you regularly do. If something upsets you, figure out how to fix it. If it isn’t in your control to fix it, move on. Hold on to the things that make you happy and save them for the tough times. While you are learning on this search from the inside out, I encourage you to share your stories in the comments section.
Sending out positive vibes, I challenge you to be more perceptive of yourself, write down your personal logistics, and improve! Have a wonderful week!