BLESSINGS.. BY SHAMYRA KENDRICKS

Blessings..



"I emasculated him
with what I called a Blessing
showered him with gifts
took care of him, paid his bills
got him out of debt
kept him out of court and laws of his back
cause that's what a good woman does
So I thought...

cause that's what momma did
cause she saw her momma do it
but my blessing was a cursing
and it was worth nothing
because he walked away from my purse strings






to her and far so far from me...
Because the truth was
everything I did proved I could do it
without him

I could handle my own alone
and that I didn't need him

beside me
and that caused him to do the one thing
he didn't want to do
cry
see he would die for me
look me in my eye and lie to me
he would bleed for me
drop his seed for me

his seed in me
but cry
he needed to be needed
and being with me
depleted his male being

his self worth
his manhood
because I was
I N D E P E N D E N T

and he pleaded from his inside
to be who God created him to be
a PROVIDER

he wanted his place back
and now my heart stung
from the ache
of the break
from the pain
of the stain

of the tears on the pillowcase
on his empty side of the bed
because I emasculated him
with what I called

Blessings....

Written by Shamyra Kendricks

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